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Thursday
July 16th, at 9:45pm
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The smallest shit can eclipse the nicest major things.
And at this moment, i am searching for a rational reason to be alone.
Pardon me cause i think i need to be,
for awhile.
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| gone too soon |
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Saturday
July 11th, at 11:05pm
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I admit that I too, obliviously, am a typical person who appreciates one more only after ones' death. I did not listen to Billie Jean, The Way You Make Me Feel, Remember The Time and some other top hits by Michael Jackson, The King of Pop to most and the greatest entertainer to others. However after his death, the lyrics to these songs are at the tip of my tongue. Despite him lacking the degree of existence in me for a period of time, the news of his death on June 25 surprised me. A sudden rush of despair along with curiosity burned in me. I never thought Id live to see the loss of this music icon. One with the name that everyone can associate with. One whose existence no one is oblivious of. Just who is this guy? And why did he make such an impact on me. I don’t usually fancy catching up with latest updates or should I say gossips of celebrities. However, Michael Jackson was an exception. I began researching regarding this successful musician. Upon reading further, I came to realize that he was a lonely and deprived gentleman. His life was not peculiar to what people would refer to a celebrities’ life. Instead of having high ego and feeling superior, he was a very humble, helpful, caring and childlike being. He was deprived of normal life. Not being able to do ‘everyday’ things was one of the few pains that he endured. Crossing the road, shopping at the neighborhood grocery store are mundane to us yet those are what Michael Jackson was deprived of. The media and people had made a big mess with the gossips and accusations about him. From his physical appearance, his way of life to accusations of molests. And he abhorred it. He even wrote a song ‘ Leave Me Alone’ due to this. He was trying to live the life he wanted to live, though some things didn’t really go his way. He was a man who lived life like no other, or so I believe. He did not do harm to people, instead doing kind deeds, yet people were criticizing. Why aren’t any other artists criticized on their plastic surgeries like how Michael Jackson was? And why was he accused of molest when his love towards kids was so pure. At this point of time, I am still hoping that news of Michael Jackson to appear in the headlines. “ Jacko is not yet dead. “ That will probably cheer me up. Since his death, I haven’t been able to face the fact that he is gone. He seems to still live in me. Listening to his songs can make me tear. What more watching his heart touching videos. You are gone too soon. …… The world lost the greatest entertainer yet his music will always remind me of this great man though it made me tear. “Maybe only now they will leave you alone.” – Marlon Jackson
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| Lalala. |
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Sunday
July 5th, at 2:42pm
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haha.
so i havent been updating.
like i dont know since when.
received my pay recently.
and its almost totally spent.
got myself shoes, pants, tops, accessories.
but im still in need of more.
shopping with fie and hicurl was awesome.
(:
  
  
Love,
Fieks.
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| oh blackberries. |
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Sunday
June 21st, at 3:17pm
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I AM GOING TO MISS THIS.
really.
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| liebe |
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Sunday
June 21st, at 3:10pm
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no doubt i was shocked to see you with another.
one that is no lesser, perhaps better.
shits happened and time passed.
so i see no reason why i shud make a fuss. cause i love my life now.
though i wouldnt say its the best.
theres nothing so wow.
but im just happy, nothing less. when we are good,
im happy as can be.
but when we are not in the mood,
things can turn to a major catastrophe. but you still shower me with love,
and thats all i need to have. and im sure regardless of those,
you i have loved the most. no one has treated me like you did.
and i never thought i deserve these good treats.
but as you came along,
i realised my thoughts were wrong.
in that crowd of acquaintance,
you are one that never give up and stood patient.
life was never as hard when youre around.
you would never let me be down.
with you, things turn out different.
memories with you id never burn.
baby, i cant help but to say it,
youre just the one i need. |
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| oh yes, its HOLS. |
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Saturday
June 6th, at 11:00pm
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 its only saturday and im already missing everyone. yes you, especially. ( ATC) please make it for the friday's picnic. i never had picnics with friends before. like real ones. so please. i havent got anything else to say. im telling myself not to doubt you.
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| two of a kind. |
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Thursday
June 4th, at 10:08am
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we dont look similar now do we ?
nah.
yet my dad kept mistaking my sister for me last night.
sigh.
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Tuesday
May 19th, at 8:22pm
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despite my lacking of posts,
i havent got much to post this time.
life has been fairly alrght.
have been missing those mafuckers above,
though i see them almost everyday,
though they can be a pain the ass sometimes.
but i totally love them.
and not having my closest bestfriend in school,
sure is hard.
its hard to adapt to this independent life in school.
but i guess, i cant do much about it.
bah.
im done im done.
ciao.
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| ehm-you-and-dee-eh-and-ee |
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Monday
May 4th, at 10:47pm
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life has been pretty mundane lately.
quite happy for everything that has happened recently.
there arent much downfalls in this phase of my life.
perhaps not just yet.
though i hope for the very best in time to come.
i really dont know what else to update here.
cause im really contented with life right now.
ouh, bestfriend, or whom used to be,
i dont need you, really.
i dont need a friend who hoped that i got beaten up.
i dont need a friend who cursed me everytime.
i dont need a friend who is a hypocrite.
fancy expecting me to wish you happy bday.
HAH.
that will be the last thing i would do.
and i dont mind not getting gifts from you my dear bestfriend.
and i dont have anything against you.
(:
guess thats it.
havent got much to post up here.
goodbye. and goodnight.
fieks.
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| NUR ATIQAH BINTE HAMZAH |
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Thursday
April 23rd, at 8:27pm
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shes a cousin of mine.
i dont know whether she's sane nowadays.
a day back, she was listening to my mp3.
I believed it switched off on its own due to flat battery.
she then asked me,
" eh, MP3 ni nye batt boleh weak eh? "
( " Eh, can this mp3's batt go weak ? " )
hmmm.
ive never heard of MP3 batts that wont go weak.
one that powered by solar perhaps.
PS: kau marah kat aku eh ?
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Monday
April 20th, at 11:37pm
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okey.
so it was the first day of school today.
and i was late for my first lesson.
i stepped in the classroom at 0923hours
and the lesson ended at 0930hours.
thumbs up!
looked around and it seems like there are alot of girls this year!
boohoo to me.
yoohoo to my mates.
i dread first week of school.
cause first week attendance doesnt matter.
and my periods are here which also mean BAD BAD CRAMPS.
i dont know what else to update here.
bye.
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| just another love story. |
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Friday
April 10th, at 7:01pm
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Comfortably lying in bed,
as the sound of raindrops playing in my head.
Its cold and i wish you were here by me,
maybe snugging in our own little bed watching horror movie.
or perhaps going out there playing in the rain and getting ourselves wet.
without having my mom getting mad.
It may be cold out there,
but with you, i dont think i care.
Cause you give me warmth no one has given me.
For that i dont think theres a reason why i should worry.
After all that fun with you out in the rain,
we'll lay by the fire watching the flames,
telling stories and fantasies we both share.
Though heard a zillion times, but we dont care.
Cause these colorful stories will not go grey.
Cause these are our little dreams that we wish to happen, we pray.
Soon enough we'll fall asleep by the fire.
hoping to wake up to find that He answered our prayer.
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| elle-oh-vee-ee. |
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Friday
April 10th, at 6:19pm
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hoho.
so like i said in my previous post.
im gonna write about yesterday's outing in this post.
so so,
met syabil and fie in the afternoon.
then we were off to inter to meet hicurl.
then headed to marina.
pen and hurf were already waiting for us.
well, pen was there since i dont know when.
he called me up telling me hes already waiting while i was in bed.
heh.
had our lunch over at long john while waiting for atc and fahmi.
its been awhile i had anything from long john.
fahmi and atc arrived soon after.
so now, its complete.
every one of my closest beings were there.
headed to the movie theatre to watch Fast&Furious4.
and no one wished to sit beside pen cause he will always have comments for every scene.
that aside, overall the movie was great.
after the movie, we headed to haagen dazs to get ice cream and mrs fields to get cookies.
and the booth along riverside to get a drink.
sat near the bridge.
chitchatted, ate icecream while the others skate.
it was nice to see everyone's back.
though i wont see much of some of them in the near future.
sure gonna miss them shit load.
not long after, we headed home.
two NParks officer approached us from nowhere.
but we already cleared what we had to.
and the litters werent ours.
so they left.
a total sigh of relief.
see what these fines did to us.
me, fie and hurf headed home,
while fahmi went to buy a new phone,
pen accompanied him,
hicurl and syabil hung ard pris while waiting for them.
and fahmi went straight to my house to show me his new phone.
ASS.
so thats about it.
not much.
but totally enjoyed my day.
lovely day with my loved ones.
LOVED it!
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| hell of a day. |
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Friday
April 10th, at 1:15pm
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today gonna be a hell of a day.
cause im home with my sister.
there is nothing much worst than this.
i rather be left alone at home tidying up the house.
than to have her helping me out.
cause it will only make it seems much more things to be done.
yes, due to her naggings and craps.
and she will do redundant stuffs while i do what i usually do.
i rather she not help.
me doing my own cleaning,
at my own pace,
at my own will.
not being screamed at for not doing stuff that i will eventually do later.
not being screamed at for still being in bed at this hour.
cause i know without those screamings, i can do better.
darn.
i should be updating about yesterday's outing.
but i just cant help it.
ill update abt yest perhaps later on or something.
(:
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| a whole lot of Ands. |
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Wednesday
April 1st, at 8:11pm
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haagen dazs macademia nut icecream.
had been craving for it.
and hicurl bought me a tub !
woohoo .
and since ive yet to mention it here,
i totally love my new ( not thaaat new anymore ) vans fairlane shoes!
weee!
hmm , it looks so nice when its new.
and happy bday to this muthafucker,
FAHMI BIN RAZALI.
muka kau mcm monyet.
and,
i miss you atc.
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Wednesday
March 25th, at 11:31am
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*clears dust*
omg. its been so long since i last update.
so so,
life has been pretty mundane.
not considering the supp papers which were really stressing the hell out of me.
and still, im nt confident in passing any.
bah.
those aside,
my parents are pretty understanding.
or should i say, trying their best to.
though they suck at it at times.
kudos for the effort. -.=
its hols.
and i have no job.
and im totally CASHLESS.
yes. no money. zero. mei you. takder.
even so, im happy.
things to do before school commence,
1) PLAY LEFT4DEAD.
2) SKATE
3) SHOOT.
thats it.
:D
love you people.
thank you thank you.
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| boredom |
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Friday
February 6th, at 10:55pm
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never say its the last.
cause saying it, 2 minutes passed.
time is running so fast.
ill spend my days with you, from dawn till dusk.
im bored as fuck.
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| An Instant Sunset After Dawn. |
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Thursday
February 5th, at 10:32pm
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seating by the beach.
reminiscing while staring into the waves.
listening to heart beats of each.
trying to relive the moments i fave.
at the words you spoke i teared,
its like nothing that ive heard.
like a heart got speared.
your absence was the thing i most feared.
but i guess its here to haunt.
making things worse to this life so torn.
though its the very things i fond.
its like an instant sunset after dawn.
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| An Entry. |
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Friday
January 30th, at 11:06pm
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it has been at least a month ,
going on two since i last post anything up here.
i dont really have the mood to rhyme.
so itll be a pretty vacuous and boring post.
just a teeny weeny bit of update on me.
school has been pretty usual.
absent from lessons whenever i could.
yet revising whenever i should.
having a pretty fucked up social life.
but im coping well enough to survive.
got a balance from my parents.
nice at times, mad at no reason.
exams are around the corner.
but being prepared is nowhere near.
so much for a resolution to gain trust.
at this rate, im not going to last.
sorry. somehow along the first few lines i realised they rhymes.
so i just had the urge to continue to rhyme.
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| Outdate |
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Thursday
January 8th, at 10:38pm
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oh thanks
you told me once
to appreciate life
cos life is beautiful
oh no, you lied
lifes unfair
and has been that way
how hard was it for me
when you left.
when im done
and found a significant other,
you appeared
im lying if i say im totally over you
if i did, its prolly the ego that stays put
please tell me this is just another daily nightmare
which i will wake up to soon enough
how i enjoyed the moments when i caught glimpse of you
and when you appeared out of the blue
i bet you wouldnt want to see me again
why must you do this to me again
oh not again
it was hard enough back then
how i managed to pretend
everything has come to and end
oh all the songs you sent
just reminds me of you back then.
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