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Friday
October 30th, at 9:44am
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so im adapting to this new place.
though its not totally new.
cause im still in the same neighbourhood.
not too far.
but at times if i were to pass by the previous house,
id sure reminisce the times i had at that wonderful house.
the never ending guests, a one-stop car wash, and no lifts.
lots more.
but this new place aint bad in any degree.
having my own room was what i wished for.
okay no. not exactly my own.
but a room without the sister.
and its been fine so far.
school has been different this semester.
due to the presence of my twin sister in my school.
i would say its a fair balance of both pros and cons.
pros:
i have a friend in school. (not that i dont have any, okay. prolly another one)
people tend to initiate convos saying they saw another me.
cons:
i hav lesser variety of things to wear.
cause i cant wear what she wore the day bfor.
gah !
i cant think of any other reasons.
so yah.
lessons and labs have been pretty fine.
made friends here and there.
i kinda love school now.
and please dont think im gonna ace just because i love school.
though i will my best to.
hmmmm..
okay.
thats it.
hope to watch MJ's this is it very soon.
tschuesss.
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| liebe. |
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Tuesday
October 13th, at 3:29am
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a little comes a long way.
imy.
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| home sweet home. |
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Monday
October 12th, at 1:51am
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so that anticipation for the new room and house has totally revised into a whole different feeling.
im in a state of total denial.
it feels like its just a dream that ill wake up to in my previous home.
or maybe,
a chalet. that soon enough ill go home have a good bath and sleep in that squeezy yet comfortable room.
i still cant adapt to this new space.
its a great difference from the previous and current home.
but soon, i hope to accept the fact that that home of mine is already owned by another.
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Tuesday
October 6th, at 1:33am
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have been pretty busy with my new crib.
planning what to dos and executing it.
gotta have plan Bs cause shit happens.
anticipation is firing up for my new room.
the first time ever having my own.
and i want it to look the way i want it.
im really really glad my parents arent against with much things.
im happy for that.
thanks loves.
carl and ngah came over to lend a helping hand on painiting and repainting some parts my room.
spray painting one of the walls.
im pretty contented with the results.
even mom is happy about the change of colors.
i cant wait to move.
but i would say i miss my current house.
totally full of memories.
and yes, i dont have to take lifts.
once, i went to my new house.
took the lift cause im deprived of taking it.
but the lift refused to elevate.
then realised, i pressed one instead of two.
kudos.
will soon post pictures of the new house and room.
till then, goodnight.
love,
fieks.
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| life's fair. |
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Saturday
September 12th, at 3:05pm
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Life is unfair, oh no it isnt. Cause life has its balance. Like how it has its ups and downs. Like how adjectives are with its antonyms.
Its impossible for life to go monotonous. Cause when ure up, gng down is inevitable. Live your life while ure marching forward, learn ur mistakes while u retreat.
Having you around was neither monotonous. I experienced the time of my life, and i learnt the deepest despair. Never think that i regretted, never think i liked it. But i learnt to accept it. That not everything will go my way. It may never be easy with your departure, but living on pays. Facing it has made me tasted love like i never had. Now, I thank you for nothing but what i live on for.
And Youve created the fall for me to rise.
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Wednesday
September 2nd, at 2:34am
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exams are done.
And im waaaaayy tooo freee.
Well not exactly.
Free from hving anything to do.
But not free from the house.
ergh.
Outings with my mates were really awesome.
Escpecially those i truly miss but i rarely meet.
Break fast and short geylang trips.
Haha.
Meet up soon guys.
Im sorry for intruding.
It was a spur of the moment that i logged in.
Glad youre doin gd.
Cause guess i am too.
Love,
Fieks. (:
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Friday
August 21st, at 11:00pm
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so i havent been updating anything here.
ive been busy lately.
real busy.
exams are just around the corner.
and tomorrow marks the first day of ramadhan.
oh my.
things are really gonna change.
Happy Fasting (:
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| boredom. |
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Saturday
August 8th, at 4:02pm
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Monday
July 27th, at 11:37pm
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Monday
July 27th, at 10:24pm
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i have lots to update but i cant seem to make up words for them.
but fahmi has been pestering me for this one.
he is just so proud of his retarded looks.
ultimate retarded-ness.
thats all.
thank you.
and yes,
on the left is muhammad pen, while on the right is fahmi aka mr accident.
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| Alone. |
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Thursday
July 16th, at 9:45pm
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The smallest shit can eclipse the nicest major things.
And at this moment, i am searching for a rational reason to be alone.
Pardon me cause i think i need to be,
for awhile.
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| gone too soon |
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Saturday
July 11th, at 11:05pm
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I admit that I too, obliviously, am a typical person who appreciates one more only after ones' death. I did not listen to Billie Jean, The Way You Make Me Feel, Remember The Time and some other top hits by Michael Jackson, The King of Pop to most and the greatest entertainer to others. However after his death, the lyrics to these songs are at the tip of my tongue. Despite him lacking the degree of existence in me for a period of time, the news of his death on June 25 surprised me. A sudden rush of despair along with curiosity burned in me. I never thought Id live to see the loss of this music icon. One with the name that everyone can associate with. One whose existence no one is oblivious of. Just who is this guy? And why did he make such an impact on me. I don’t usually fancy catching up with latest updates or should I say gossips of celebrities. However, Michael Jackson was an exception. I began researching regarding this successful musician. Upon reading further, I came to realize that he was a lonely and deprived gentleman. His life was not peculiar to what people would refer to a celebrities’ life. Instead of having high ego and feeling superior, he was a very humble, helpful, caring and childlike being. He was deprived of normal life. Not being able to do ‘everyday’ things was one of the few pains that he endured. Crossing the road, shopping at the neighborhood grocery store are mundane to us yet those are what Michael Jackson was deprived of. The media and people had made a big mess with the gossips and accusations about him. From his physical appearance, his way of life to accusations of molests. And he abhorred it. He even wrote a song ‘ Leave Me Alone’ due to this. He was trying to live the life he wanted to live, though some things didn’t really go his way. He was a man who lived life like no other, or so I believe. He did not do harm to people, instead doing kind deeds, yet people were criticizing. Why aren’t any other artists criticized on their plastic surgeries like how Michael Jackson was? And why was he accused of molest when his love towards kids was so pure. At this point of time, I am still hoping that news of Michael Jackson to appear in the headlines. “ Jacko is not yet dead. “ That will probably cheer me up. Since his death, I haven’t been able to face the fact that he is gone. He seems to still live in me. Listening to his songs can make me tear. What more watching his heart touching videos. You are gone too soon. …… The world lost the greatest entertainer yet his music will always remind me of this great man though it made me tear. “Maybe only now they will leave you alone.” – Marlon Jackson
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| Lalala. |
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Sunday
July 5th, at 2:42pm
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haha.
so i havent been updating.
like i dont know since when.
received my pay recently.
and its almost totally spent.
got myself shoes, pants, tops, accessories.
but im still in need of more.
shopping with fie and hicurl was awesome.
(:
  
  
Love,
Fieks.
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| oh blackberries. |
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Sunday
June 21st, at 3:17pm
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I AM GOING TO MISS THIS.
really.
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| liebe |
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Sunday
June 21st, at 3:10pm
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no doubt i was shocked to see you with another.
one that is no lesser, perhaps better.
shits happened and time passed.
so i see no reason why i shud make a fuss. cause i love my life now.
though i wouldnt say its the best.
theres nothing so wow.
but im just happy, nothing less. when we are good,
im happy as can be.
but when we are not in the mood,
things can turn to a major catastrophe. but you still shower me with love,
and thats all i need to have. and im sure regardless of those,
you i have loved the most. no one has treated me like you did.
and i never thought i deserve these good treats.
but as you came along,
i realised my thoughts were wrong.
in that crowd of acquaintance,
you are one that never give up and stood patient.
life was never as hard when youre around.
you would never let me be down.
with you, things turn out different.
memories with you id never burn.
baby, i cant help but to say it,
youre just the one i need. |
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Saturday
June 6th, at 11:00pm
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 its only saturday and im already missing everyone. yes you, especially. ( ATC) please make it for the friday's picnic. i never had picnics with friends before. like real ones. so please. i havent got anything else to say. im telling myself not to doubt you.
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| two of a kind. |
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Thursday
June 4th, at 10:08am
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we dont look similar now do we ?
nah.
yet my dad kept mistaking my sister for me last night.
sigh.
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Tuesday
May 19th, at 8:22pm
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despite my lacking of posts,
i havent got much to post this time.
life has been fairly alrght.
have been missing those mafuckers above,
though i see them almost everyday,
though they can be a pain the ass sometimes.
but i totally love them.
and not having my closest bestfriend in school,
sure is hard.
its hard to adapt to this independent life in school.
but i guess, i cant do much about it.
bah.
im done im done.
ciao.
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| ehm-you-and-dee-eh-and-ee |
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Monday
May 4th, at 10:47pm
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life has been pretty mundane lately.
quite happy for everything that has happened recently.
there arent much downfalls in this phase of my life.
perhaps not just yet.
though i hope for the very best in time to come.
i really dont know what else to update here.
cause im really contented with life right now.
ouh, bestfriend, or whom used to be,
i dont need you, really.
i dont need a friend who hoped that i got beaten up.
i dont need a friend who cursed me everytime.
i dont need a friend who is a hypocrite.
fancy expecting me to wish you happy bday.
HAH.
that will be the last thing i would do.
and i dont mind not getting gifts from you my dear bestfriend.
and i dont have anything against you.
(:
guess thats it.
havent got much to post up here.
goodbye. and goodnight.
fieks.
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| NUR ATIQAH BINTE HAMZAH |
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Thursday
April 23rd, at 8:27pm
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shes a cousin of mine.
i dont know whether she's sane nowadays.
a day back, she was listening to my mp3.
I believed it switched off on its own due to flat battery.
she then asked me,
" eh, MP3 ni nye batt boleh weak eh? "
( " Eh, can this mp3's batt go weak ? " )
hmmm.
ive never heard of MP3 batts that wont go weak.
one that powered by solar perhaps.
PS: kau marah kat aku eh ?
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